Friday, February 19, 2010

hot trash

tin can radio.
sweet band. triple j unearthed, go find it. i'm too lazy to do it for you. plus my bandwidth is goneee.
so yeah :) while you're there - boy and bear. also very nice.

so i've been doing a lot of thinking in my down, sick time. i read a psychology university textbook (i feel smart) and i think i've worked out some things about myself.
i've got a very fear fear of being alone. almost a phobia, but not quite. being home alone, being alone in my room at night, going anywhere alone, hiding - they all scare me. oh, and a lot of other things about why life sucks and is pretty pointless. it's amazing what you think when you're not at school being told what to think.


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my mother thinks i have depression and ocd, and my boyfriend thinks that i am developing anxiety. which is just, really cool, you know? i can agree with the ocd. it's horrid. everything has to be perfectly placed and clean or i can't ignore it.

by the way, everyone should go and watch requiem for a dream. it's one of those movies, that after it ends, you just sit there and you don't know what to think. you're just, stunned. beautiful music, too.

so yeah.
All my love.
x

1 comments:

Heather said...

I have the same fear of being alone. even to the point where i don't want to do things by myself. it's terrible. sometimes it gets really bad and makes me feel sick when i have to be alone at home and it's dark outside.
i'll be sure to check out that music though. and i plan on watching Requiem for a Dream whenever i finally get the chance to see it.

"it's amazing what you think when you're not at school being told what to think."-i've had that on my mind as well, especially since i graduated high school and currently don't attend college.

whether or not you have anxiety, depression, ocd, or whatever, i think what's most important it how you deal with it, even if you don't know for sure what it is.

i wish you the best though. i hope things go alright for you.

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